One of the biggest desires of my heart in creating this blog, was to have the courage to speak up..to share what I have to say about things. I am not the most wise or well spoken individual, and I struggle so often to share what I’m hearing and learning from God, because of how aware I am of these facts. So often I have a thought about or response to something, but I belittle its significance and just let it go. I have not been faithful to pursue part of this blogs’ purpose, out of insecurity and doubt I so easily allow myself to give into.
But God has been revealing to me more and more and more (He’s had to remind me A LOT), that He hears and sees exactly where I’m coming from and that is really all that matters. This is all for Him. He values what I have to say and even if it doesn’t come out in the best, most eloquent and precise manner, even if it seems like no one is listening, reading, or cares… it’s somehow still a thing of beauty and value to HIM. I don’t have to have all of the right words, I don’t have to impress anyone. I can just be me, pursuing and learning from Jesus. Striving to serve Him fully with my life, and trust that the Holy Spirit will grant me with strength and wisdom to proclaim His goodness well.
So I said all of that to say this: I want to be faithful to write more about my hope in Christ here. I want to share more about the thoughts, joys, weaknesses, triumphs, trials and restorations of my faith. I want to speak in confidence about things, knowing that regardless of all the weaknesses I see in myself, God is being glorified. It’s an act of worship unto Him when I open up about what He’s been saying, doing, teaching and taking me through. I want my life to be nothing less than a representation of who He is. I don’t want to hide or be ashamed of a single trial I face. I don’t want to struggle with sin and not share with someone else how I was able to overcome or learn from that sin. I want the gospel to be proclaimed and understood more fully, and it’s my prayer that this platform can be used to accomplish that in some way.This blog post was supposed to be about something completely different, but when I sat down to write it, this is what spilled out!
I hope that this has somehow encouraged and challenged you, friend. Be encouraged that you are loved, paid attention to, and heard by God. Even if you’re feeling as alone and inadequate as can be, HE is with you. HE sees and knows you better than anybody, and what He sees is pure gold. HE will never fail you. Run to Him with all that you have and ask for Him to reveal the truth of who He is, what He’s done for you and who you are to Him. And challenge yourself to proclaim Him boldly and more actively in your life. It may seem like we have so much to lose sometimes, but the truth and greatest hope is that we have everything to gain by being a willing, humble vessel unto God.
Yes, and I will rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and the help of the Spirit of Jesus Christ this will turn out for my deliverance, as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.”
Thanks for reading!