Well friends, our big secret is out, and we are SO excited to finally be sharing the news that we are expecting our first little one! I still find myself pausing after saying that, because it’s just so hard to believe that it’s actually happening. We’re going to be PARENTS!
I remember like it was yesterday when we found out. Back in January, I had been getting hit with major waves of exhaustion and just not really feeling like myself for a few weeks. I had a slight feeling I was pregnant, but kinda brushed it off initially because I wasn’t expecting us to get pregnant so quickly. Both Jay and I have had our own slew of health problems and so we were assuming it might take awhile. But I eventually took a couple tests and literally gasped when the two pink lines showed up on both (don’t ask me why I took two after the first was positive! Haha) I immediately ran downstairs to tell Jay and it was pretty hilarious how shocked we both were. The baby wasn’t unplanned, we just couldn’t believe it was happening so soon! But we are THRILLED beyond words and super anxious to find out what our little one is.
As far as how the baby and myself are doing, the pregnancy has been going great so far. Baby is due October 7th! He/She is going strong and has a good and healthy heart rate! I was hit with pretty horrendous morning (afternoon, and night) sickness majority of my first trimester which was not fun. At all (at least it’s a good thing). But thank the good Lord, by week 11 I started feeling SO much better and more like myself and that’s been glorious.
Being completely raw and real with you all, the first few weeks pregnancy were an emotional roller coaster for me. I had the desire to be a mom and had been feeling “ready” for quite some time to embark on that adventure, so I couldn’t have been more excited when we found out! But then with all the excitement came the realization that a very new, unfamiliar, life changing chapter was approaching us. I cannot put into words just how beautiful marriage to my husband has been and how much we truly enjoy spending life with each other. It’s been such a sweet time and there was a bit of sadness in my heart knowing that things were going to look very different for us very soon. From there, the enemy used the thoughts and feelings I was having to create more fear inducing thoughts and feelings. I began to feel all sorts of unprepared and inadequate for motherhood.
But I am so thankful for the peace of God. The marvelous, all surpassing, enemy defeating peace of God! It swoops right in, full of precious promises and perfect comfort, that drown out the meaningless noise and fears we so easily can get overwhelmed by. God continues to lovingly and patiently remind me, that His timing is always perfect, ALL his paths are steadfast love and faithfulness (Psalm 25:10, 26: 3, 40:11, 86:15, 117:2) and that He is the one that gives us the strength and ability to do anything in this life.
Anything done in our own strength and by our own efforts will always fall flat. It’s by His Spirit and by fully surrendering to Him that we are fully equipped, given the ability to live lives that bring Him the greatest glory, and that in turn bring us the most freedom. I initially wanted to write this blog just to elaborate a bit more and celebrate our exciting news, but I also wanted to write this as some sort of encouragement to somebody out there today.
I don’t know where you’re at right now. Maybe you’re terrified (like I was for a little while) about having a baby, maybe you desire so much to be a mother and are struggling with fertility, maybe you have kids already and are just really feeling defeated right now, or maybe none of this is even on your radar yet. Whatever season you’re in, take comfort in the fact that our good and gracious God CAN BE TRUSTED. He is perfect in ALL things, ALL circumstances and at ALL times. He sees you. He knows exactly what He’s doing with and in and through your life and it is without question, beautiful. His grace is sufficient for you today, tomorrow and the days to come (2 Cor. 12:9). It’s in our weakness that His mercy and strength can be displayed all the more!
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
– 2 Corinthians 12:9
If you think to, please keep our little family in your prayers. Pray for God’s wisdom and direction for Jay and I as we prepare for parenthood and raising up our child in the truth. And for our sweet baby. Please be praying for their continued life and health and that even now, they would be drawn to the Father. We cannot even wait to meet our little one and introduce whoever they are to you all. EEK!
Thank you so much for the prayers and for reading. Stay tuned for more updates!